Doodles…

my doodles for today! Still a W.I.P.

Gaara and Naruto!!!

A song about rising prices…

The Mutton’s song about rising prices. Sung to the tune of Secondhand Serenade’s Fall For You:

best thing about tonight is that i’m breathing
cause last i checked the air was still for free
try to smell what my neighbor is frying
then I cry into my maggi mee

mummy please
from tonight can start to give me more money
handphone again i need to pay the bill
I want to eat some macdonalds, or maybe KFC
Tomorrow I want to take taxi to school
Take taxi to school…

oh my god another gantry
think i just spent my bonus on ERP
wondering if you can help me
push my car from jurong to changi

oh no petrol left
think tonight i’ll pray someone give me petrol for free
Esso or Shell, Caltex or SPC
i don’t care i’m really not that fussy
if i push my car I’ll surely break my spine

Shippuden

It’s been 4 days.

4 days since I started watching Nartuo from Episode 1.

And now, 220 episodes of Naruto and then some later, I am on to episode 12 of Naruto Shippuden.

Maybe I’m watching too much.

=.= And there I was, telling myself I would never watch Naruto cause it dragged on too damn long. It does, actually. The filler episodes are too darn draggy. But now, we’re into an arc that centres around my favorite character….

砂瀑の我愛羅, SABAKU NO GAARA (literally translating to ‘Gaara of the Desert’)

-SPOILERS LAH!-

He’s a pain in the first series which shows him as an overly emo kid with strange skin conditions… But he’s so badass in Shippuden it’s impossible not to watch it with my jaw hanging open (though, after the first awesome battle that lasts 4 episodes, he kinda keels over and eventually dies from having his demon raccoon sucked out… I know. Sounds stupid.). But he’s pretty cool for a kazekage. Compared to the previous one that totally got the shit kicked out of him by the weird snake guy…

I hate liking the supporting characters. They never get enough screen time.

Thank goodness for this arc.

Though his lines are mostly “…” and occasional howls of agony from having the life sucked out of him over 15 episodes.

This feeling inside…

Lost is a something I’ve been feeling quite often lately. Wanting to do the right thing has never been quite so difficult. It’s been a while since I doubted my definition of “the right thing”.

A few things are on my mind. Chronologically, what would I do with my FYP? Go with my msn man story? Try to work something out from scratch? I want to work. I want to draw. The pencil is on the paper and there’s not a ghost of an idea in my mind. It infuriating, this stagnant buzz of inactivity in my head. I have barely a month to get this right. For myself and so many other animators, whether to abandon our ideas to work on the projects of others… Whether people would even want to work on our projects if it gets accepted… This uncertainty, so close to the start of semester, is nothing less than nauseating.

Then comes the student club. What will happen if no one runs for president? After much thought, I wouldnt mind running again if there is no one taking the reigns. But new blood is still best for the club to progress. But who’s going to take this up? Who wants to fight for this? Who wants to do this thankless task filled with near insurmountable odds… There’s so much left to do in the most critical year for us yet. And yet, there are so many things holding me back if I do come to that final decision. The choice is so clear yet so muddied in my mind.

Then my biggest headache now is what to do after I graduate. Do I go to Canada and take a one year certification course? Or do I apply for a job in Ubisoft Singapore? I want to work in that studio and continue the work I’ve started here in Paris… But I cant leave my brother there alone. Yet I can’t leave the people here alone either. Then again I’ve been thinking about applying for the Vancouver Film School for over a year now. But if I go, it would be for too long. Why are the kids causing parents so much ache… We are supposed to be more or less set by University. And yet this seems like the biggest hurdle.

My head hurts. My heart hurts. Everything hurts.

And still I have no answer.

Draw draw draw…

The cone people spent time and effort burying in the ground has emerged from its pit of despair, growing tentacles that burrow deep under the earth’s surface.

Guess what I’ve been doing…

Yeap. Watching anime online.

Today was spent doing walks… Transitions… And thinking of FYP. Here is a character that might be my FYP character…

Oh Shit.

Alright… So today was really strange…

Firstly, I finished my second story last night, and woke up to an earth shattering 10 reviews to the last chapter, bringing it to an all time high of 44, and the number of hits increasing at an exponential 30 readers per hour.

Sick.

I didn’t even like this story as much. Too many loose ends. Too many ideas conspiring in my mind only to find themselves unrealized, unresolved and unwritten at the end of the story I haphazardly blathered out in the middle of the night.

Then the email.

The compulsary Singapore Studies subject has been moved to Wednesday afternoon, forcing me to relook at my schedule and changing Systems For Everyone to Crime and Punishment… or Fundamentals of Communication Studies. Either ways it messed things up. Now I have to choose between a free Friday and late Thursday, or relaxed Thursday evening and busy Friday morning and afternoon.

Not to mention on Wednesdays I would have no time to eat with Digital Compositing now back to back with Understanding Singapore Society.

Bah.

Then the letter.

I got my invite to attend the Convocation ceremony and dinner held in July. And as current president of ADM, I am more or less obligated to go. A few problems.

Convo ceremony – I’ll be in Paris
Convo dinner – the president of Singapore will be there.

And I have to wear an evening GOWN.

AND now my hair is in a freakishly short SEMI MOHAWK.

Oh joy of joys.

I’m spending my time pulling at my hair gently now to make it grow out faster. One month. GROW DAMMIT.

Why the hell do I have to wear a gown… Just because I’m biologically a girl doesnt mean I have to wear a gown, much less HAVE gowns to wear.

I feel a bit insulted.

But oh well.

So… GROW HAIR GROW!!! GROW NOW!!! YOU BE NOT-SO-SHORT-BUT-NOT-SO-LONG-EITHER NOW!!!

Outdated photos

French people smoke too much.

And up till yesterday, there was an MP5A5 rifle on my desk at work.

Updates

Some updates…

Mostly because I have not been doing any proper blogging in a while now. My free hours in the apartment have been spent hunched in front of my laptop, frantically putting the private movies screening in my mind into coherent text, and tossing them onto the internet. Yes, I have made the unexpected return to writing. It makes me wonder why I ever stopped to begin with.

There’s something inately liberating about baring my soul in words, making it free for strangers to read. It’s a strange revelation when you realize the only time you can show your true inner screaming emo child is when you are screaming in the facelessness of someone you will never know or meet. 150 people hanging onto your next word or idea every evening.

Storytelling. It’s stress incarnate.

I’m onto my 5th chapter of my second story now, and for once, I don’t feel the need to be funny. My first story alone had generated 3,500 hits within the first week it was published, way beyond the maximum of 200 I used to get. My second story is set to smash that record, already into 850 hits in 3 days of being published.

Epics. That’s what people want. Strange convoluted plots that only untangle and make sense in the end in a great huff of “oh I see”.

Anyway.

The time has come again to plan my timetable. Now just 2 semesters away from the end of my education (oh my goodness), it’s high time to begin looking at what I need to equip myself with. So I narrowed it down to this:

Semester 1:
Animation FYP I
French Level I
Digital Compositing (YEAH MAN!!! FINALLY!!! AFTER A 2 YEAR WAIT!!!)
Some AHSS course
Singapore Studies blah blah (which clashes with every imaginable AHSS course I want to take)

Semester 2:
Animation FYP II
French Level II
Bio in Popular Media
Cities, Bodies, something something (ADM hist course)
Last two semesters look to be rather alright… =)

The word busy seems to be leeking into my vocabulary alot more this week. Work, coupled with the survival guide I need to write for the upcoming ADM portal, and amass the students who are currently overseas to send photos or writeups about their trips, and write about my own Paris experience…

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Yeap. Busy. The word of the week.

Not to mention I’m hell bent on cutting my hair. I miss my faux hawk! I shall finish my year in ADM with the same hairstyle I started with. Kinda.

CUT CUT!!!

The boys are coming to Paris next week! Exciting. =D We’re going to London their last weekend here. And… I have yet to request for leave and book the hotel. Shall do that later during lunch…

My current iPod Touch Wallpaper:
My Teng Teng’s formal photoshoot photo. =D You look very nice lah! Nice enough to be my wallpaper. =3

Tooi.

The full stop at the end of her short life.

And all I can do is cry in my apartment 10,000km away.

And it hurts.

The Best of Ollie

Watch the Family Guy? You should.